What time can tell, that love began to deposition in the heart, thick, and light, let a person sweet and bitter.
I can't tell why, that love is always in that grasping, firm. Always echoed in his chest, full of heart. And not to swing with, wipe also cannot erase.
A man silently. Endure hunger, love of love, the love of the suffering endured loneliness, love of hard to endure the injury, the pain of love, love, love to endure the stray thoughts. The hope of love.
Silently, endured all love.
Don't know why is he has such thoughts? Whenever I infinite sentimental through the familiar place, the in the mind is always ask myself.
Too many memories, in the deep feeling of stare at the sky in far into white clouds; Too many injuries, and in sorrow in the heart a thick memories of the waves, to turn into a bottomless pit. I don't want to recall, is in order to erase the injury sorrow; I fear of hurting sorrow, because my heart dying to fall in the pits, I'm afraid the deep, the bottomless and dark. But it's all so familiar, I finally again into deep sorrow, and for the injury in the past, has already become the past for that have already lost love.
No one can know my inner sorrow and pain. In loneliness and lonely when company, and only one man to the night sky of moving silently send a disembodied thoughts, to another remote, to another the helpless existence.
At that time, the rhythm of the heart bottom triggered tension has been existing love of nerve, I have a crush on him, and never do not extricate themselves. The time is beautiful and full of, be like a ChunChun dream, and that time is also the bitter and the painful, like the taste of the wine maker brew a deep as wine. I love the design of a trap, you stuck down, their pain, to stew in his own juice.
I don't understand why he was so cool to me, this sitting down. Sometimes I think I know he was too much, sometimes the but again can't figure out what goes on in him. He always light, keeping a distance, it seems no attention paid to me more and more deep that day after day after day for he thought the pain.
Know that one day I almost painful for him to lose confidence, he just told me that he used to have suffered, that is heavy, devastating blow, which he has long pain, and can't imagine. He said he never believe that love, also won't to love, he asked me to understand him.
I understand him, I don't hate him. But, I hate that brought him pain. Although he said he had forgotten the occasion, forget the man, but I still can't get away from the hate. I hate her since then destroyed my confidence, change my entire life. I deeply love him, but never get his love, although he had to my care and love. But I want to me in love of his love, I know it is not possible to achieve. When I know the facts, I really don't know how to describe the pain, the far more than was refused to intense pain.
I imagine his life, will be calm and ordinary, is a truly lonely. He is handsome, a YiShiDuLi English quite enough to let you move. And you try to approach him and said he, but always meet a euphemistic avoid, make you not to disturb him, only looking at him from a distance. His melancholy always let people heartache, but he never is closed, the wrong other people vindicated.
And I imagine my life, will be full of pain thorns and sad rocks. The former my carefree and happy, comfortable, now I sentimentality, so concerned. I don't know when I can get away from this kind of lonely pain, I love too deep, in too deep. And I am unable to change, change reality fate, my strength is too small! This world has no any boy can give me free. The world, past, present and future, he only has one, and the deep love, from now on and then on him, and it won't transfer, it won't happen again, also won't die-in the past, present and future, in the eternity of time and the universe.
I know, at first I could make a the most difficult to forgive mistakes. Until now I just know, I fall in love with being a nothing, and a beautiful fantasy. I even think, at that time, and he will turn away my cold, and tell me all the past him, let I to he died in the heart, my heart that article feelings will never happen, and this can never be so painfully suffering! I good sad good regret, I shouldn't go is in love with him, this is the most difficult of my life make mistakes!!!!!
To me how sincere, in my mind, how it was the result of!!!!! I'm confident I depression on top of the world. I am no longer worthy to love him? Or I don't deserve to get his love?
In the future, the road of life long time with me, will not be forgotten and dies, but the memory of the eternal pain and enduring the wounds, he know? He know......
Until now, and I still remember that year with him, although there is no love scene, no fell in love, only light communication, light friendship. In my heart of hot hot, his heart frozen lake clear water, cooling, such as static and clear, and the deep does not see the bottom. I threw a stone, not afraid of failure that is quiet, afraid of ruin the clear, even more afraid of stones went down, deposition in the lake bottom. I finally left him, with the way the regret is unable to attend, with the vast firmament of understanding friend when the disconsolate, a man silently continue to go my way. The pure, over the death of love, from now on and then deeply implanted in the bottom of the heart.
Love, have already lost; Heart, can't afford to shock wave, I not bless his future, he does not need to bless; I don't lamented the fate of I, that is irreversible reality. Looking back the past, I have had a lost, the injury sad time; Looking to the future, I don't need a life sustenance. Love, passes, affection, to remain in heart. Even if you have a family, the long end, then, my heart also were dead, as the lost nothing, a shooting star as a lost love......
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